Yup…scrambled. Each day brings new emotions lately. Can’t wait to get into my sits…so much that I am even doing them twice a day and even for twice or three times longer. I really love the time during my sit. Do I come back here…or is where I am going during my sit here… there…. where??? The red pill or the blue??? Outside my sit life has become a roller-coaster of emotion and clarity. From thinking I know what I want, to having no idea…from being perfectly clear…to perfectly confused…I LOVE IT! Something new is going on in me…around me…with me…I have been guided to enjoy the journey…so I am! I just know that things are about to get really wild and I am okay with that. I am okay with accepting the fact that I will be letting go of my banana…bananas. First half of my life was great…next part will be even better. I did not like change…would always order vanilla ice cream for desert…same meal at the same restaurant…. WOW….really? What was I thinking?
The awareness and perspective creeping into and around me is awesome. I made a pact with myself that this post would be positive and motivating. It’s all green pencil and growth. I choose to show and strengthen courage and let the other atrophy! I’m going for the “what is wrong with you?” question from the people that I know now…it proves to me that I am on the right track when “they will know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life.”