I do not even know where to begin. …how about with a question…no…a comment…a comment with a question…alright already…just spit something out! I feel like the first time I caught a fish…so excited and proud…reeling that puppy in…everyone watching and pointing and giving me advice…slowly now…don’t let it get away…and then as I pulled it …
Yup…scrambled. Each day brings new emotions lately. Can’t wait to get into my sits…so much that I am even doing them twice a day and even for twice or three times longer. I really love the time during my sit. Do I come back here…or is where I am going during my sit here… there…. …
My sits have become a part of my day now. Every day I have done at least one, which is about 20 minutes and I miss going “there” if I am not able to sit in the morning. I’ve begin to look a little deeper as to why this “music” brings me to where it …
Okay, first… I have to thank Shelby Nolan…and I feel that just a “Thank-you” does not even come close to the gratitude that I feel in my heart for you Shelby, nor justifies the appreciation I have for what Shelby brought to me. I’m not really even sure how to explain what she brought to …
Confusion…lack of clarity…overwhelmed…stuck…not knowing what to do…not wanting to do anything. I know this place way too well…spent way too much time here. Living…”sitting” with the question; “What….. Do…. I…. Want?” *wind blows*… tumble weeds blowing by…a coyote howls in the background…silence. I know this place. I’ve been here many, many, many…have I said many… …
This week has been another eye-opener for me. Has this always been there??? Is it a new awareness? Experience after experience are starting to blow me away! My new awareness and perspective are inspiring me to dig in, dig deeper and try to really figure this out: 20. The subconscious mind never sleeps, never rests, …
I have become painfully aware this week that my subconscious is not going to allow me to simply change myself all-of-a-sudden. Difficulties have arisen that I’m not really prepared for. My mind is scrambled. I’m having arguments with myself. Trying to rationalize what I am feeling, what I want, what I don’t want and why …
What … Do … You … Want? Those words echo through my head. Those words have brought fear to me…since even before college. I thought that since I could not decide, I would just start trying everything. Trying everything was great, until… well…have you ever heard the expression “spread a mile wide and an inch …