This week is a very difficult week for me… You see, I have recently become aware of the fact that I shrink so that other people won’t feel insecure around me. I thought that not only was it okay, but that I was actually helping others by not making them feel insecure around me.
Explain that to me Extraordinary Eileen asks. So if I was having an amazing day and someone asked me how I was doing, especially someone that I know was not in a good way, instead of saying “I am awesome today… truly having a magnificent day!” …I would say “I’m okay… you know, same ole same ole.” I would actually feel guilty to be having such a great day because the person I was engaging with was not.
Writing this out and reading it takes on even another form to me now. I can kind of justify it… but being involved with the MasterKey Mastermind Alliance (MKMMA) and learning what I am learning and reading that with my newfound knowledge…well…makes it seem pretty stupid that I would do that to myself!?
So week three of the MasterKey lesson brings out lots of tears from me as I try to read through it. “It is evident, therefore, that all we have to do is let our light shine;” …all we have to do!!!??? Yikes!!!
What a shift of habit! …and awareness:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
…and BOOM! I AM ALL IN! How selfish have I been NOT letting my light shine>? What an awareness of how helpful I could be if I would just let my light shine!!!
Today I begin my new life!